I don't know if it's the night shift, or the FOMO & missing my friends, or the wedding planning, or my late grandmas birthday or just all of it combined but today has not been easy. While there is absolutely so much joy to be found in life it does not go without some hardship. I woke up today with tightness in my chest, tears in my eyes and that feeling of hopelessness. I decided to comply with my medication and go for a run (which for me is the best medication). Running helped and I know this feeling will pass, I just hope it is soon. Tonight my goal is to remain positive and fight through this tunnel vision. Tonight I am going to keep my chin up when my entire soul is telling me to lay down. Tonight I will get through this feeling and tomorrow I will be better for it.