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It's been a rough couple months, if I were to be completely honest.
Beyond all these pretty Insta pics through Indonesia and the Philippines, there lies another story. It's not that I've been trying to share only one side of it. It has never been my intention to sugar coat or "hide" the reality. But it's easy to just post a pic of a pretty sunset or a boat trip to a lagoon. It's not so easy to post the real stuff though.
What image captures pain and darkness while living in paradise? In what way do you display the truth for all to see when it's hard enough to look at it in the face behind close doors when no one is looking, by yourself?
I don't need to share anything on here. But when we share, we open the floor for others to do the same. Being vulnerable automatically gives others permission to be so also. Learning to live from a place of love allows others to live from love, and really, that's all we need.
To get there, I've had to cut out and cut back on things in my life that no longer serve me for the greater good. Anything blinding me from seeing what needed to be seen.
Striving to let go of the chase. The running. The grasping & clinging. Anything that kept me bound to it.
Walls. Safety nets.
Break them down. Chop them up.
Impressive cobweb and dust collections.
Lots of deep digging. Removing rocks and patching up holes so I had nothing to hide under anymore.
Nowhere left to hide from myself. Face to face. Expose it all. Lay it all out on the table and look at it.
Eyes wide open.
Looking at all the hard things, but also all the beautiful things too, which almost proves to be harder to do.
It's unbelievable how well we can hide from ourselves. How well we can fool ourselves. Lie to ourselves. How well we can fall complacent in how we live and what we believe.
Complacent in being.
It's never easy. Doing this work. And it doesn't have to be either.
Life doesn't need to always be happy and perfect. We are allowed to feel sorrow and despair and know that there is nothing wrong with it or with ourselves.
I've been giving myself permission to say no. To feel. To grow.
Returning home to my soul.
For the journey-is the destination💙