You hurt me so incredibly much. You hurt me to the point I can no longer even take hearing/seeing a passing car late at night; for fear that it is you or another 'friend' coming to tell me more secrets of yours. Your kisses, love bites, teeth marks still are marked on my skin and I scratch at them till I pass out to a nightmare of you kissing and marrying your other man. I do not hate the other man. He did not know and I know you hurt him as much as you hurt me. But what hurts even more is that you didn't come beg at my door for another chance. You went to his and cried and screamed for him. You had asked me to marry you at a beautiful beach during a beautiful sunset and I thought this is it. I'm finally happy. I'm finally where I'm suppose to be. But you had to show me I'm not meant to be loved. I'm not enough to be loved by someone like you. Or anyone really. You hurt me, yet my heart still loves you. I just hope you are happy with what you have done to me and him. And the family you ruined. I hope it was enough. This is my goodbye to you. I want nothing to do with you ever again. Not one thing you said to me was true. So here's a big fuck you and a goodbye. I threw your ring in the ocean by the way. Hope you didn't want to return it. Goodbye, Alexander/Nixon/Emily. Have a great life.