From last year's Christmas holidays' outdoor decoration
which was just as impressive as the one indoors.
I feel totally disconnected with December,
with the past couple of months in particular.. Maybe because they've come,made an impact and gone?
Everything about the past and present appears to be just that simple
- first they arrive,then they influence or have no effect whatsoever,and finally they all vanish for good.
I'm currently travelling
I obviously am since this is perhaps the only suitable time for me to upload my photos and clad them with descriptions.
This week has been so harsh on me I've barely managed to plan my days the way I do
And yes,free time has become a very expensive luxury.
But my attention now is mostly fixed on the sunrise.
I'm used to focusing on these parts of the day in which I either hurry,study,or get stress because I haven't hurried enough 'and the clock is ticking'. My pre- and post-school walks have gotten kind of short,
my life has started to revolve around 'surviving' the school day,which I fill with a wide variety of priorities,instead of keeping it rather simple,as I probably should.
My point is,I seem to have less and less time to enjoy everything around me these days
because I hurry
and because I'm thinking about the future much more than I do about the present
To me what happens now,at this very moment,gives me very special.. let's say 'sense' of feeling alive,of freedom and of unpredictability.
And so,gazing through the bus window occasionally,I see the beautiful sunrise I no more allow to be a big part of my busy days.
Early morning,I don't know what is happening to you,but I'm positive that one day everything is going to be the way it was -just you,me and nothing or no one else for a good one hour or less.
Because what the beginning of the day means and does to me